The things I forget to survive my emotional rollercoasters. Putting it all aside thinking it will all be okay and things will be better But are not. Yes, I am back with my magic man, I don’t think too many relationships have done what we have with so many break-ups and back together. The last one was the longest I thought I could be without him. The time has come to realise we are good together if I only start listening to my heart and not the negative rest of my thoughts. Continue reading “Things we Forget”
As I sit, here thinking of the hurt I put someone through, saying sorry will not change my actions I have already done. The feeling of losing someone’s trust because you could not trust yourself. The pause in the text the insecurity talks through your head. I have made some big bad mistakes, not know why but the feeling of losing is not nice. I am not sure how I can make it back to the girl he first met that had lots of laughs. Continue reading “Hurt Feelings”
I have been absence for a reason, things have been difficult to put into words. I have done another cycle, but that’s not all. One thing I cannot mention because the law prohibited. But I can talk about me; I have been lost alone and unhappy pretending I am ok. Now I am back with the magic man and have to face that this is good for me and my child and its ok to ask for help and accept love and help when needed. I can still be my person at the same time. I am starting to realise that if I just let life be and not try to control it and be happy within myself, I have found love and happiness. My heart wants to jump in and give all, but my head does take over and says be careful. If I let all go, I feel I will just want to hide and be scared. My work is finally kicking off, and it is exciting I have some great ideas but needs work out. So my job is now to break these cycles and talk about it as I feel it coming on so can prevent this all happening again.
When some says goodbye to you, you’re thought changes. You cannot run back to your cycle, the security and reality hits. Now it is time to stand on my own two feet and stop looking for comfort and avoiding my issues. Stand up make something of yourself again. You have done this before, you can do it again. Stop looking for the easy way out and face your fears of being alone. Its ok, i keep telling myself. The goodbye had their own reasons; sometimes you cannot change until you faced with it. Continue reading “Why a goodbye can be positive”