The Power of Emotions have a purpose even when they are unwanted

Emotions have a purpose even when they are unwanted.

We should not attempt to suppress them as we get taught to.

Our Emotions are energy that manifest in our body. This is from the neck down. To have the need to start paying attention to where our emotional energy in sitting and learn to breath and not hold a breath against it.

The other day I got some new and my feelings just started to come up out and I was a mess crying and feeling choked and the tension of loss all came flooding out through my heart and chest and thought.

This was a time to let go and breathe and feel and wallow in my own silence.

  Noticing and let it go and gaining clarity as we move and let it out and go. So pay attention to where it is manifesting in your body. Where is the tension tightness?

Emotions are a vital part of our being, because it is energy and energy cannot just disappear. The emotional energy generated by circumstances of childhood and early life just does not go away just because we do not face it and deny it, no. It is trapped in our body like a time bomb ready to explode.

If we don’t learn how to release it in a healthy way it will course us forms of sickness or cycles of not being able to achieve in life.

As long as we suppress the emotional energy and avoid dealing with it, these wounds will run our lives. We use food, cigarettes, alcohol, drugs, work, religion, television, etc in keeping this all suppressed.

Our voice in our head keeps us from fronting and deal with suppressed energy, emotions. Our emotions tell us who we are. Souls communicate with us through emotional vibrations.

Our soul is what we feel in our heart and our gut, something that resonates. So was this feeling that guttered me from my soul that I am not listening to?

THERE IS TOO MUCH I CANNOT CHANGE.

I have created this world now I need to make it work.

When one of our buttons is pushed our unhealed childhood wounds are present it is hard to difference between intuitive emotions TRUTH and the emotional TRUTH which come from our childhood. The scared little kid inside us comes out in emotion we cannot explain.

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The wounds don’t go away. they have less power to dictate my life as I heal it.

I am on a spiritual journey and the force is with us.

Be kind to it heal yourself and live the life you want to live.

How we think people see us. Open Pandora’s box of love

Open Pandora’s box of love

Opening Pandora’s Box is a saying. Maybe classed this eval is inside but love, beauty, negative can all flow into one journey giving us the giggles.

We always think the worse seeing and picking on what we don’t like about our looks.

But I see the real beauty in side people. What is on the inside comes throw our skin.

  You give me inspirations you make me laugh and I am always learning and growing around you. The habits the physical look you are thinking others see is how you see yourself. Change these thought and grow glow. That is what a true friend sees.

 as observe an intelligent man who has always got a lot of knowledge to share and always bringing people up and making them feel good about them self.

Yes you have a way of saying it how it is but that is the truth and even if they don’t understand it then and there they will realise later. You have just helped them be a better them without you realising it.

looking at a man with a hot tight ass one of my eye candy’s. I love the way you walk and strut your confidence. You are hot in many ways and you are mine and I love the way you flirt and tease and making me always satisfied.

 Your friends think you are amazing and kind and also have a lot to bring to the table in a relationship and as for my friends they only want me to be happy.

It funny after our little break I see you so differently now I see no faults just pleasure and I also feel you are taller now. You have grown in my heart and eyes and I love everything about you. S

one time I find myself thinking and picturing the little dance wiggle you do with your hips and it bring be to a little giggle.

hearing your voice singing in my ears and I smile. I have you on my mind all the time picturing your eyes ever so soft and loving and sensual.

I have fallen in love and when I say it I tell myself I am not to run from love ever again, stay and enjoy and breathe it into my soul.

I am happy comfortable and cannot see myself anywhere else in this world, only in your arms.

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The way you make me feel is just unreal. I am happy our eyes crossed paths

and you gave me your number

this journey begin of us in the wind

the wind of love, the warmth of lust and to always trust

to give each other inspiration as we gather our information

our information of our path together making it for ever

I will be yours truly as I feel you near me and never leave me

I have know where to hide but in your arms of love and pride

I know this is love for us.

So let enjoy our never-ending story of you and me with glory.

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what makes us happy

At the present I still think of what I had and what I have done and still question where I want to be. I am in paradise but still something is missing. I run I try to fix but all I need to do is find and be myself. I am learning to say what I want and what I need so I don’t stress. Sometimes I think am I going to be like a friend and be too picky on what I want. I know I want someone to connect in a deep way but also take the role of a supportive parent to my son. Not just treat him in away to be with me. This is something that is hard to expect from any one. My child is my life and I see it now you must be there for them not ask for what your needs are first. Mmmmm not sure if that made sense.

How I see my future is not seeing it yet. I guess to have someone fulfil my deepest emotions and me still being able to accept their needs in life too. I am finding communication and soul you can share anything together not one way is what I am craving. I also would like the load of life to be shared too. I am not put here to take care of anyone but my child. To help him grow and learn to be the best man he can be with his disability.

So now I am tuning into my needs and working with my child in helping him grow and feel loved.

I keep reaching out to what I knew felt good but in saying that I need to let go but I cannot because I know it was right I just need to figure out what was wrong for me to keep running away. Once I have figured that out I will understand myself and know what makes me happy.

I feel life is at stand still at the moment and lots go on around me. I am working on my business to keep me from focusing on the negative. I love work and making people feel good and the social is greater too.

Life you need a friend to talk to

You need a friend to express your crazy deep feelings with

And just your general social chit-chat to feel love and good about your self

So a purpose to feel good

A soul release

A chit-chat friend

And you to know who you are

FINDING CLOSER

I fear five a clock every day

FINDING CLOSER

This is my worse time of the day having to deal with my Childs melt downs of abuse towards me and feeling lonely. I wish had help at this time of the day. I am alone and hate it and just want to pack my bags and run and keep running. I am weak and am tired of life treating me like I am a piece of shit and It is my own child how can I run I have to face it.

All I want is someone to be there around this time but I guess some things you are meant to face alone. I am caught up between a soul mate and a lover. Trying to deal with my mixed emotion and my son mixed emotions is really challenging and hard. I have to be strong, but all i want to do is collapse into supporting arms and disappear. A well know feeling of mine. This time I have to just try to let it out the best way I know how and that is writing. I still question life and what makes us happy and till I figure this out I will always be looking back to the comforts I had. A friend said I will be with the one I love with my heart. I still question that too.
Why do I fear five a clock every day
This is my worse time of the day having to deal with my Childs melt downs of abuse towards me and feeling lonely. I wish had help at this time of the day. I am alone and hate it and just want to pack my bags and run and keep running. I am weak and am tired of life treating me like I am a piece of shit and It is my own child how can I run I have to face it. All I want is someone to be there around this time but I guess some things you are meant to face alone. I am caught up between a soul mate and a lover. Trying to deal with my mixed emotion and my son mixed emotions is really challenging and hard. I have to be strong, but all i want to do is collapse into supporting arms and disappear. A well know feeling of mine. This time I have to just try and let it out the best way I know how and that is writing. I still question life and what makes us happy and till I figure this out I will always be looking back to the comforts I had. A friend said I will be with the one I love with my heart. I still quI fear five a clock every day
This is my worse time of the day having to deal with my Childs melt downs of abuse towards me and feeling lonely. I wish had help at this time of the day. I am alone and hate it and just want to pack my bags and run and keep running. I am weak and am tired of life treating me like I am a piece of shit and It is my own child how can I run I have to face it. All I want is someone to be there around this time but I guess some things you are meant to face alone. I am caught up between a soul mate and a lover. Trying to deal with my mixed emotion and my son mixed emotions is really challenging and hard. I have to be strong, but all i want to do is collapse into supporting arms and disappear. A well know feeling of mine. This time I have to just try and let it out the best way I know how and that is writing. I still question life and what makes us happy and till I figure this out I will always be looking back to the comforts I had. A friend said I will be with the one I love with my heart. I still question that too.
Why do I give myself a hard time about life it should be easy meet some and live a life of work, play and no stress? I feel I create my own stress by not living in the now and keep trying to make it all perfect. Got to get this done, got to make this work. When children are involved you tend to think of what they need not your needs. I think one day I will get my turn in life and have my own place of happiness.
I cannot ring my closest friend as she is friends with whom I feel was my soul mate. I don’t want to reach out because he needs to move on his journey and find his strengths as this was not possible with me around. I am seeing it now we both needed to be apart to gain strength on our own. I think i will never be happy till I find strength in my heart and voice again.
So I guess this is how it flows until I see the light of life as it is painted out for me.
I am sorry I know you might read this but this blog is for me to let go and not show the people around me how dysfunctional I am. Who reads this is people fare away that cannot affect me or look into my eyes and see the pain I am going through. Yes we all put on that happy face and life s great to everyone but sometimes life is not so great.
I live in paradise but I am not in paradise yet. My paradise is the beach not the bush. The bush is some one else’s paradise not mine.
I THINK I KEEP REACHING OUT BECAUSE I HAVE NOT FOUND CLOSER
HOW DO I DO THIS?
estion that too.
Why do I give myself a hard time about life it should be easy meet some and live a life of work, play and no stress? I feel I create my own stress by not living in the now and keep trying to make it all perfect. Got to get this done, got to make this work. When children are involved you tend to think of what they need not your needs. I think one day I will get my turn in life and have my own place of happiness.
I cannot ring my closest friend as she is friends with whom I feel was my soul mate. I don’t want to reach out because he needs to move on his journey and find his strengths as this was not possible with me around. I am seeing it now we both needed to be apart to gain strength on our own. I think i will never be happy till I find strength in my heart and voice again.
So I guess this is how it flows until I see the light of life as it is painted out for me.
I am sorry I know you might read this but this blog is for me to let go and not show the people around me how dysfunctional I am. Who reads this is people fare away that cannot affect me or look into my eyes and see the pain I am going through. Yes we all put on that happy face and life s great to everyone but sometimes life is not so great.
I live in paradise but I am not in paradise yet. My paradise is the beach not the bush. The bush is some one else’s paradise not mine.
I THINK I KEEP REACHING OUT BECAUSE I HAVE NOT FOUND CLOSER
HOW DO I DO THIS?
I give myself a hard time about life it should be easy meet some and live a life of work, play and no stress? I feel I create my own stress by not living in the now and keep trying to make it all perfect. Got to get this done, got to make this work. When children are involved you tend to think of what they need not your needs. I think one day I will get my turn in life and have my own place of happiness.
I cannot ring my closest friend as she is friends with whom I feel was my soul mate. I don’t want to reach out because he needs to move on his journey and find his strengths as this was not possible with me around. I am seeing it now we both needed to be apart to gain strength on our own. I think i will never be happy till I find strength in my heart and voice again.
So I guess this is how it flows until I see the light of life as it is painted out for me.
I am sorry I know you might read this but this blog is for me to let go and not show the people around me how dysfunctional I am. Who reads this is people fare away that cannot affect me or look into my eyes and see the pain I am going through. Yes we all put on that happy face and life s great to everyone but sometimes life is not so great.
I live in paradise but I am not in paradise yet. My paradise is the beach not the bush. The bush is some one else’s paradise not mine.
I THINK I KEEP REACHING OUT BECAUSE I HAVE NOT FOUND CLOSER
HOW DO I DO THIS?

Fear of accepting your child is different.

We love our children dearly sometimes we hide behind the truth. I have been battling this for a long time. Now it has become dangerous. So I have pushed and faced the fact that this is not normal behaviour.

 

Yes everyone has their own input but not everyone has been around my child all the time. The things that happen behind closed doors, I have just been putting up with hoping everything will be normal soon. Yes we do have good days but then it goes back to verbal abuse and hitting and not letting me out of the room to breaking things.

Now we have started the medication and I am numb and not knowing what to feel. I listen to everyone having their opinion but how do I feel about this? I have had enough of the abuse and am going to go with the flow and see how this affects him. I am the mother in control and I will do what’s best for my child. But sometimes the heart gets in the way and we make some sad choices.

I do feel relieved and also concern, but I have always just wanted for him to fit in and have friends. WHEN YOUR MOTHER SENDS YOU A TEXT LIKE THIS,

The truth hurts.

I may have moved to paradise but i am not in paradise yet.