Missing the affection you gain from someone

Missing the affection you gain from someone being present

missing a partners affectionI am feeling strong but affection is a must

it is the one thing I lust

to have you hold me tight at night

to pull me ever so tight

I am missing the spooning at night

as I fight to be strong and bright

to shine for myself as I follow the light

please god give me strength each night

I must admit I am not doing too bad

but it hasn’t been long to feel sad

https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/self-talk

I long for the right, not the wrong and the bad

so let’s say I have been strong

but I feel a rush that is coming on

I am going with what is good for me

but yet I am not so good you see

well not yet lol

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Does my wall lock them out or keep me prisoner ?

captured or not

Does my wall lock them out or keep me prisoner?

Does my wall lock them out or keep me prisoner ?I am at no turning point

It is not a game

The feelings I don’t feel

I hind them in shame

Not knowing what to do any more

But what I already know

Is to shut them out and not feel any more

My life is not painful or is it in love

I just keep going about work and life’s jobs

Not sure if I will ever let someone in

As this is life as I know it is

So I guess I will keep running and keep all away

Because that is my life as in May

Maybe someday someone will know what to say

And make my wall fall away

You all have a nice day

The Power of Emotions have a purpose even when they are unwanted

Emotions have a purpose even when they are unwanted.

We should not attempt to suppress them as we get taught to.

Our Emotions are energy that manifest in our body. This is from the neck down. To have the need to start paying attention to where our emotional energy in sitting and learn to breath and not hold a breath against it.

The other day I got some new and my feelings just started to come up out and I was a mess crying and feeling choked and the tension of loss all came flooding out through my heart and chest and thought.

This was a time to let go and breathe and feel and wallow in my own silence.

  Noticing and let it go and gaining clarity as we move and let it out and go. So pay attention to where it is manifesting in your body. Where is the tension tightness?

Emotions are a vital part of our being, because it is energy and energy cannot just disappear. The emotional energy generated by circumstances of childhood and early life just does not go away just because we do not face it and deny it, no. It is trapped in our body like a time bomb ready to explode.

If we don’t learn how to release it in a healthy way it will course us forms of sickness or cycles of not being able to achieve in life.

As long as we suppress the emotional energy and avoid dealing with it, these wounds will run our lives. We use food, cigarettes, alcohol, drugs, work, religion, television, etc in keeping this all suppressed.

Our voice in our head keeps us from fronting and deal with suppressed energy, emotions. Our emotions tell us who we are. Souls communicate with us through emotional vibrations.

Our soul is what we feel in our heart and our gut, something that resonates. So was this feeling that guttered me from my soul that I am not listening to?

THERE IS TOO MUCH I CANNOT CHANGE.

I have created this world now I need to make it work.

When one of our buttons is pushed our unhealed childhood wounds are present it is hard to difference between intuitive emotions TRUTH and the emotional TRUTH which come from our childhood. The scared little kid inside us comes out in emotion we cannot explain.

http://powerfulpandorasdiary.com/2018/09/04/wild-soul-mate-take-it-and-run-with-it/

The wounds don’t go away. they have less power to dictate my life as I heal it.

I am on a spiritual journey and the force is with us.

Be kind to it heal yourself and live the life you want to live.

How we think people see us; open Pandora’s box of love.

Open Pandora’s box of loveHow people see us; love and relationships | Pandora's Diary

Opening Pandora’s Box is a saying. Maybe classed this evil is inside but love, beauty, negative can all flow into one journey giving us the giggles.

We always think the worse seeing and picking on what we don’t like about our looks.

But I see the real beauty in side people. What is on the inside comes throw our skin.

 You give me inspirations you make me laugh and I am always learning and growing around you. The habits the physical look you are thinking others see is how you see yourself. Change these thought and grow glow. That is what a true friend sees.

 as observe an intelligent man who has always got a lot of knowledge to share and always bringing people up and making them feel good about them self.

Yes you have a way of saying it how it is but that is the truth and even if they don’t understand it then and there they will realise later. You have just helped them be a better them without you realising it.

looking at a man with a hot tight ass one of my eye candy’s. I love the way you walk and strut your confidence. You are hot in many ways and you are mine and I love the way you flirt and tease and making me always satisfied.

 Your friends think you are amazing and kind and also have a lot to bring to the table in a relationship and as for my friends they only want me to be happy.

It funny after our little break I see you so differently now I see no faults just pleasure and I also feel you are taller now. You have grown in my heart and eyes and I love everything about you. S

one time I find myself thinking and picturing the little dance wiggle you do with your hips and it bring be to a little giggle.

hearing your voice singing in my ears and I smile. I have you on my mind all the time picturing your eyes ever so soft and loving and sensual.

I have fallen in love and when I say it I tell myself I am not to run from love ever again, stay and enjoy and breathe it into my soul.

I am happy comfortable and cannot see myself anywhere else in this world, only in your arms.

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How people see us; love and relationshipsThe way you make me feel is just unreal. I am happy our eyes crossed paths

and you gave me your number

this journey begin of us in the wind

the wind of love, the warmth of lust and to always trust

to give each other inspiration as we gather our information

our information of our path together making it forever

I will be yours truly as I feel you near me and never leave me

I have to know where to hide but in your arms of love and pride

I know this is love for us.

So let enjoy our never-ending story of you and me with glory.

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what makes us happy

At the present I still think of what I had and what I have done and still question where I want to be. I am in paradise but still something is missing. I run I try to fix but all I need to do is find and be myself. I am learning to say what I want and what I need so I don’t stress. Sometimes I think am I going to be like a friend and be too picky on what I want. I know I want someone to connect in a deep way but also take the role of a supportive parent to my son. Not just treat him in away to be with me. This is something that is hard to expect from any one. My child is my life and I see it now you must be there for them not ask for what your needs are first. Mmmmm not sure if that made sense.

How I see my future is not seeing it yet. I guess to have someone fulfil my deepest emotions and me still being able to accept their needs in life too. I am finding communication and soul you can share anything together not one way is what I am craving. I also would like the load of life to be shared too. I am not put here to take care of anyone but my child. To help him grow and learn to be the best man he can be with his disability.

So now I am tuning into my needs and working with my child in helping him grow and feel loved.

I keep reaching out to what I knew felt good but in saying that I need to let go but I cannot because I know it was right I just need to figure out what was wrong for me to keep running away. Once I have figured that out I will understand myself and know what makes me happy.

I feel life is at stand still at the moment and lots go on around me. I am working on my business to keep me from focusing on the negative. I love work and making people feel good and the social is greater too.

Life you need a friend to talk to

You need a friend to express your crazy deep feelings with

And just your general social chit-chat to feel love and good about your self

So a purpose to feel good

A soul release

A chit-chat friend

And you to know who you are