what makes us happy

At the present I still think of what I had and what I have done and still question where I want to be. I am in paradise but still something is missing. I run I try to fix but all I need to do is find and be myself. I am learning to say what I want and what I need so I don’t stress. Sometimes I think am I going to be like a friend and be too picky on what I want. I know I want someone to connect in a deep way but also take the role of a supportive parent to my son. Not just treat him in away to be with me. This is something that is hard to expect from any one. My child is my life and I see it now you must be there for them not ask for what your needs are first. Mmmmm not sure if that made sense.

How I see my future is not seeing it yet. I guess to have someone fulfil my deepest emotions and me still being able to accept their needs in life too. I am finding communication and soul you can share anything together not one way is what I am craving. I also would like the load of life to be shared too. I am not put here to take care of anyone but my child. To help him grow and learn to be the best man he can be with his disability.

So now I am tuning into my needs and working with my child in helping him grow and feel loved.

I keep reaching out to what I knew felt good but in saying that I need to let go but I cannot because I know it was right I just need to figure out what was wrong for me to keep running away. Once I have figured that out I will understand myself and know what makes me happy.

I feel life is at stand still at the moment and lots go on around me. I am working on my business to keep me from focusing on the negative. I love work and making people feel good and the social is greater too.

Life you need a friend to talk to

You need a friend to express your crazy deep feelings with

And just your general social chit-chat to feel love and good about your self

So a purpose to feel good

A soul release

A chit-chat friend

And you to know who you are

YOUR A VICTIM OF YOUR OWN MIND SET YOURSELF FREE

Music works on our vibration changing our moods. Allow your mind to connect with your soul through music. Music uplifts and moves through our body as we let go and be inspired at the same time. My son and I love going for drives and turning the music up and singing loud as we over express the words.

Life can be a challenge just every day-to-day but if we free our self and listen to the messages and sign it can change how we see things. I love playing with this, I see lots of the same numbers in time, and I also take note if I turn on the radio what song is playing to what the message is behind it. Messages are everywhere.

 

https://www.verywellmind.com/ways-to-calm-down-quickly-when-overwhelmed-3145197

DONT BE PUSHED BY YOUR PROBLEMS

BE INSPIRED BY YOUR DREAM

It is what it is

Thousand words can’t bring you back. I know because I’ve tried. But i am not allowed

And neither would a million tears i know you have cried and it is what is.

I am not allowed to let my past interfere with my future as it was what it was.

FEAR of facing our deepest fears has set it apart.

The power of Birthday Magic unleashed

The power of Birthday Magic

Birthday Magic

Birthday magic. My life has taken a big turn after leaving  behind all I had, this is not an easy choice as I once felt like all I needed was my friends. Now realising I need to learn to love myself and the rest will come naturally fall into place.

MINDFULNESS IS ABOUT OBSERVATION WITHOUT, JUDGEMENT, AND BEGING COMPASSIONATE WITH YOURSELF.

 

I have a need to understand past experiences and to heal my body. Yes today is my birthday and feeling blessed with who is around my presence at the moment and all the magic happy birthdays I have received.

Happy birthday

A perfect birthday is different for all

yes I have been a wild child in my past

simple things in life that make the heart beat is the most important to me.

You can do any thing in your life, your choice.

achievement

we must think of what I have achieve and the choices I made to be in a happy place for myself and yes lots of people struggle.

I look and see that lots of people like to complain but still sit in there security of unhappiness.

What I have done has been bloody hard facing my own demands and finding the truth, but Birthdays can be made into what you want.

This time in my life it is hard to explain but it is all falling into place every thing is perfect yes in my eyes.

I have family, I am creating independence with work and enjoying looking out at my paradise I can call my home.

it feels like paradise a healing place for the soul, that is my home.

http://pandorasdiary.com.au/home-is-to-heart-belongs/

Birthday whishes’ can be an illusion.

I have still got lots to do and achieve and make this flow all the way. I will never stop working on myself and my dreams.

love to help others find them self and happiness towards their dreams in life that is my passion.

we all need to take a step back and look at how far we have come, what we have achieved and be happy with that.

You can achieve any thing you like.

http://thehifilife.com/top-5-personal-achievement-blogs/

The Journey Begins

The journey begins,

The life that I am no longer hiding from. Dealing with the feelings as they come to me now. Yes I had a picture on how life was going to be but now I have to throw that away and start again, that’s ok I got this.

Where to start, I find out now that the past man has a lot of things he has not faced and this maybe why it drifted apart, as I have been facing what is put in front of me for  some time now.

My cycles have been stopping and I am facing this head on now. my new relationship yes you read right. I have met some one and as crazy as it seems, I was not looking or doing my old habits (that one I refused to do again) and it just happened. The eyes met, it was easy to communicate and there was no expectations.

This time it was hi and see how it goes, have a milkshake, that easy. I feel like we have been together in an other life time as we have lots in coming and yes we are both treating it as friends, who knows where it ends.

SOMETHING DIFFERENT IN MY THOUGHT PATTERN THIS TIME ROUND

life journey blog

All the girly things and stuff when you first meet some one, like

  • when they here you go to the toilet and you fart
  • when you need to blow your nose and you stop yourself from looking at it first
  • shy and hiding your body around them
  • picking at your feet or body parts in front of them
  • when you first get into bed with each other covering up
  • cleaning your teeth for the first time in front of them
  • seeing each other naked on the toilet
  • talking about sexual stuff and not ashamed.

All of this is natural like we have been married for years, weird but hey that’s what is going down. Yes my brain still say go slow but my other says this is easy, and then you get that crazy shit like you only just met him like.

This time round no running, only talking and facing it together and work it out. this is it, done and it will work.

My fairy tale is here, yep I am crazy but we all have to stop running and face the facts and what we what out of it.

 

How to shuts one door and open the other.

How to shuts one door and open the other.

How to shuts one door and open the other.

The closing of one door means you have room to open another. opportunity comes your way. let go of the negative and positive will flow your way .

The answer changes, according to your level of consciousness

when you are sure of the DOOR is closing  you see new opportunity coming to you. Embrace don’t ask just trust what is in front of you.

I have come to another time of disappointment, but this time it is different. I read, I felt, I got a message and said this is a passive control of capturing me and not setting me free. free to be my own person and learn my own way. That is was I felt but my own trouble was not believing and trusting the path. Yes I made mistakes but that’s my learning.

next time round I can be shown the light with out the darkness.  feeling this is where I belong and I will find my tribe here. the fun, laughter, spiritual crazy journey. the last two to three years have been big, I have fallen into dark places, I have bounce of walls and done some crazy stuff, I have done some bald moves not every one can don this. yes never regret only learn that’s me. hard to let go but easier when the lesson is learned. but when you have been hit so hard you will never forget and that’s ok.

I have learned to pause and not fight as this just leads to unhappy spite.

http://pandorasdiary.com.au/when-love-is-with-you/

You can only love others to the same extent, or, as much as, you love yourself.

forgiveness is the most essential requirement if you want to wipe the slate clean.