I have become so numb over my life. How do we let this happen? Life becomes a routine of things to do. Wake up coffee, work, kids and sleep. Then do it all again, when do we have time to feel what makes us alive and feel again.
When we shut down it is hard to find our feelings again. Does this come from way back and then have someone crush us so hard we don’t rely upon we become numb. I shut down as a little girl then used drugs and stripping to feel alive again only to find behind closed doors I was still was that lost lonely little girl.
We only grow when we face our past and work on our inner child. As scary as it may be baby steps will lead the way. Breaking it down over the past years I am able to face my fears. Understand and pause and reframe my mind to collect the information and accept who I am today. Theses sadness still comes when I am alone but they don’t last as long as they used too. I accept that it is ok to seat in sadness some times.
When I am numb I fiddle with my thumbs
When I am sad I reframe to glad
When I am angry it really scares me
Being true to you takes a lot of courage
So do not hide your feelings let them flourish
We are all human so let someone in close to you
So when you are alone behind closed doors
You know they are there with you in spirit and love.
And home feels like home to you.