Single Mum

It is late and I am trying to dig deep and find feelings that I block so well. It has been an emotional day and a slow week. I want to feel happy but am too tired to put that mask on and smile. Life is shit sometimes and is going so slow. I am putting in the home work setting things up but still my future seems to keep getting further and further away from me. I think, I cannot complain which is not me , I am a person that hides and does not show my struggles. Continue reading “Single Mum”

The Magic Mans Story (Relationship)

when I first started texting and seeing the magic man, he texted me some thing that blew me away. That moment I new we had started connecting. He text, “I am bored send me a story”, I love that shit, I do that myself. Any way this is one of his story’s to me. When we first met you were always smiling and positive. Never sad or angry and never upset. With everything going on in your life I knew you were either holding it and hiding  what you were feeling or you were hiding from it. Continue reading “The Magic Mans Story (Relationship)”

Poem and Words

Behind closed doors no one knows

The painful happening that goes on

The smile we walk around with always bright

We find the pain ever so dark

Like for me a lost little girl

Alone and nothing to feel, always shutting down the body control

As I grow with in myself this blog is helping me let go of past life

I hope you find your way to grow and let go of all that is grey.

 

The Past Abuse

Wow, where to begin. As I am trying to think of which bad experience to right about, my neck starts to tighten and my throat feels like someone is choking me, my mouth is filling with saliva not knowing what to say, so I am going to start with what came up when I was self coaching myself the other day.

I use to get called dumb and stupid a lot, this was when I was around 12 years old (well I remember it always happening) by my step brother and then I married into that, how does that work? the fears and disbeliefs we go through as a child we carry that into our adult hood, unless we learn to stand up and believe in our selves,  we will still keep attracting it.

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Story Time of a snail falling in love

These are story’s shared between me and my magic man and this is our beginning

There once was a snail who didn’t know what happy was so he packed his bag and left home in search of happy. When he left, the weather turned bad and he struggled to move forward but he tried and tried until the weather got a little better. Along the way he met a few bugs who helped him on his way, but he also met a few who didn’t , who tricked him. They said they knew where happy was so he followed them for a while but they lied, they lead him into the dark woods where he couldn’t find his way for a long time.

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