YOUR A VICTIM OF YOUR OWN MIND SET YOURSELF FREE

Music works on our vibration changing our moods. Allow your mind to connect with your soul through music. Music uplifts and moves through our body as we let go and be inspired at the same time. My son and I love going for drives and turning the music up and singing loud as we over express the words.

Life can be a challenge just every day-to-day but if we free our self and listen to the messages and sign it can change how we see things. I love playing with this, I see lots of the same numbers in time, and I also take note if I turn on the radio what song is playing to what the message is behind it. Messages are everywhere.

 

https://www.verywellmind.com/ways-to-calm-down-quickly-when-overwhelmed-3145197

DONT BE PUSHED BY YOUR PROBLEMS

BE INSPIRED BY YOUR DREAM

It is what it is

Thousand words can’t bring you back. I know because I’ve tried. But i am not allowed

And neither would a million tears i know you have cried and it is what is.

I am not allowed to let my past interfere with my future as it was what it was.

FEAR of facing our deepest fears has set it apart.

Fear of accepting your child is different.

We love our children dearly sometimes we hide behind the truth. I have been battling this for a long time. Now it has become dangerous. So I have pushed and faced the fact that this is not normal behaviour.

 

Yes everyone has their own input but not everyone has been around my child all the time. The things that happen behind closed doors, I have just been putting up with hoping everything will be normal soon. Yes we do have good days but then it goes back to verbal abuse and hitting and not letting me out of the room to breaking things.

Now we have started the medication and I am numb and not knowing what to feel. I listen to everyone having their opinion but how do I feel about this? I have had enough of the abuse and am going to go with the flow and see how this affects him. I am the mother in control and I will do what’s best for my child. But sometimes the heart gets in the way and we make some sad choices.

I do feel relieved and also concern, but I have always just wanted for him to fit in and have friends. WHEN YOUR MOTHER SENDS YOU A TEXT LIKE THIS,

The truth hurts.

I may have moved to paradise but i am not in paradise yet.

The words that clutter our heads, negativity let’s try to reframe it to positive.

 The words that clutter our heads, negativity let’s try to reframe it to positive.

the positive out comes are from your thoughts you create.

Waking up is the most important mind-set you can grab? Stop pause lie there and thinking how do I want my day to be like.

This was me yesterday and yes it worked.

The day before yesterday was a day I would love to forget. I felt worthless, no good at being a mother and everything I said was out of anger and should not have been said out loud.

 

 When I Wake up in the morning I am going to approach everything with a smile, pause and think of how to redirect the negative into positive. It was amazing felt tired at the end of the day in the most different way. The satisfaction and calming way of tired.

The way life should feel at the end of the day.

 oppose to the other day. I was feeling of worthless and wanting to hide and crawl up into a little ball. I cried so hard my body was trembling and feelings of weakness.

To put it all down on paper released it into the universe and calmed down. Still feeling weak but release at the same time climbed into bed and let it go. I feel like calling someone as this is what usually happens but this time it is my turn to look after myself and work this out. Latterly I have been given by the universe time to myself and this has made me face me and make my own decisions.

Reframing the way you see things will help you move towards your goals of being happy.

Feelings of Numb

I have become so numb over my life. How do we let this happen? Life becomes a routine of things to do. Wake up coffee, work, kids and sleep. Then do it all again, when do we have time to feel what makes us alive and feel again.

When we shut down it is hard to find our feelings again. Does this come from way back and then have someone crush us so hard we don’t relies we become numb. I shut down as a little girl then used drugs and stripping to feel a live again only to find behind closed doors I was still was that lost lonely little girl.

 We only grow when we face our past and work on our inner child. As scary as it may be baby steps will lead the way. Breaking it down over the past years I am able to face my fears. Understand and pause and reframe my mind to collect the information and accept who I am today. Theses sadness still comes when I am alone but they don’t last as long as they used too. I accept that it is ok to seat in sadness some times.

 

 

Poem

When I am numb I fiddle with my thumbs

When I am sad I reframe to glad

When I am angry it really scares me

Being true to you takes a lot of courage

So do not hide your feelings let them flourish

We are all human so let someone in close to you

So when you are alone behind closed doors

You know they are there with you in spirit and love.

And home feels like home to you.

Your Relationship

Your relationship

Your relationship is yours and not to be assessed by any one else’s. Every relationship has been different for me. We all grow and have different stages of our life. I grow through every relationship even the one night stands. When i was young I had fun relationships not much commitment just fun and enjoying hanging out. There was one guy I thought I was committed to when i was around 20 years old but I had to live more. Then I got caught up in the drug scene dating a drug dealer of ecstasy and having the time of my life. Those were the days of stripping and parting on the weekends. I must say though I never mixed the two together I always kept them separate. Work was work and fun was fun. !believe it or not!

Then after years I realised I had to stop the drugs before it took over me. Well I thought I was not that bad but still wanted to stop. I went to Melbourne for work and met my ex husband and moved to Melbourne. Now he came into my life to help me give up drugs. He was ante and did not do drug and that was great. Yeas it worked but then the control and obsessiveness came in. Me not reconsidering it until it was too late.

and who am I, with all the abuse and threats. It took me 20 years to wake up to that one. I guess that relationship served it purpose; he did teach me how to run my own business and give up drugs. But then I became his trophy.

(Imagine this, growing up in a world searching for your soul mate based merely on a formula that has a positive outcome. Each person you meet has their own piece of the formula, and with just a touch of the index finger, you immediately know whether or not that person is the one for you. Now imagine meeting countless people, and you notice some of your friends find their soul mate before you. You begin to feel like your formula isn’t right, so you pretend to choose someone as your soul mate and later after much time you realize you made a big mistake. You wanted to be like your friend just because you noticed those around you were getting into relationships meanwhile you didn’t take the time to find the right one for you based on your own needs.)

https://originalgoodgirl.com/2018/04/14/own-your-relationship/

Your relationship is yours and not to be assessed by any one else’s. Every relationship has been different for me. We all grow and have different stages of our life. I grow through every relationship even the one night stands. When I was young I had fun relationships not much commitment just fun and enjoying hanging out.

There was one guy I thought I was committed to when I was around 20 years old but I had to live more. Then I got caught up in the drug scene dating a drug dealer of ecstasy and having the time of my life. Those were the days of stripping and parting on the weekends. I must say though I never mixed the two together I always kept them separate. Work was work and fun was fun. !believe it or not! Then after years I realised I had to stop the drugs before it took over me. Well I thought I was not that bad but still wanted to stop. I went to Melbourne for work and met my ex husband and moved to Melbourne. Now he came into my life to help me give up drugs. He was ante and did not do drug and that was great. Yeas it worked but then the control and obsessiveness came in. Me not reconsidering it until it was too late. Losing my identity and who am I, with all the abuse and threats. It took me 20 years to wake up to that one. I guess that relationship served it purpose; he did teach me how to run my own business and give up drugs. But then I became his trophy.

Soul mates and connection is not what I was used to until I met a man, we talked a lot of deep emotional stuff connecting in a lot of different ways.  I learnt so much about myself. He was there to listen to support me in a lot of ways that where new to me. however I always felt like some thing was missing. not knowing what is was I left and went back many times to find learn, not sure. A relationship in my eyes become clearer as time went on,  Family and trust was a big part of my upbringing. I am still unclear of what went wrong but we all make choices and maybe some day I can look back and answer it. Now I see things in a different light. still unsure and for sure I get lots of laughs and mind stimulation. finding your true self could take years but enjoy day by day and let in unfold.

some points that help me.

• Accepting that someone loves you

• Feeling safe and content it is hard to describe.

• You will know it when you find it. All is covered and what you dreamed of.

• Support in the action, the way they do, not just talk, they take action about it, they listen without commenting, just let you talk.

• They remember what you have said and take action.

• The look says it all; you do not need to say I love you all the time.

• You are in a busy public place they will notice your mood change from a distance and ask if you’re ok, them knowing something is up

I AM STILL LEARNING WHAT THIS CONNECTION IS AND HOW LIFE IS MEANT TO BE. SOUL SEARCHING IS FOUND WHEN YOU STOP LOOKING AND ACCEPT WHAT WILL BE WILL BE.