Well they say spending lots of time together will make you or break you. I think I have accomplished both. We spent a week together, bush walking, camping and hanging out at home, just the two of us. As you read the other post you can see our journey unfold. My feelings are scared and confused; I feel I have damaged the one person that adores me by my silly mistakes i have always made in my life. My magic man is not the same, he is doing lots of thinking and me thinking the worst i have pushed him away and that hurts to say.
Feelings of pain inside of me
Things I kept that could have changed their minds for me
Why do I do this to myself?
No trust and fear all court up inside
I wreck all good relationships
So everyone can just let me be
Be alone is what I think I deserve
Being hurt is all I have learned
Learned to live with in my life
I know no other
Just let me understand what happy is please
As I follower my journey with this man to be.