My life has taken a big turn after leaving the needy behind, this is not an easy choice as I once needed them until I grew and made choices to heal and see my self as to whom I am today.
We, well I have a need to understand past experiences and to heal my body. Yes today is my birthday and feeling blessed with who is around my presence at the moment and all the magic happy birthdays I have received.
A perfect birthday is different for all, and yes I have been a wild child in my past. but getting to know myself, I am liking family , simple things in life that make the heart beat is the most important to me. As a child my sister and I were fostered into a family THAT PRO COULD NOT AFFORD two more children but family was the most important thing. This is why this is the biggest part of my life and happiness to me that has been missing is family
Our life was hard, abusive but they did the best they could with the recourses they had and I miss them so much, they where my life, my rock and the reason I am so strong today. You can do any thing in your life, your choice.
I was thinking of what I have achieve and the choices I made to be in a happy place for myself and yes lots of people struggle. I look and see that lots of people like to complain but still sit in there security of unhappiness. What I have done has been bloody hard facing my own demands and finding to truth, but worth it now.
This time in my life it is hard to explain but it is all falling into place every thing is perfect yes in my eyes. I have family, I am creating independence with work and enjoying looking out at my paradise I can call my home. I have finally made it to the dream of my life, that’s what I am feeling. I have still got lots to do and achieve and make this flow all the way. I will never stop working on myself and my dreams.
I would love to help others find them self and happiness towards their dreams in life that is my passion.
we all need to take a step back and look at how far we have come, what we have achieved and be happy with that. You can achieve any thing you like.
This is my real mum’s story part 2
I started working with Boffa’s salon Saturday mornings while I was still at school, then I was offered an apprenticeship when I was 15 years of age just finished school. George and I lived in Chatswood , then moved to Milson’s point, then to Tasmania a mining town called Savage River. There was a general store, garage and pub that’s all I can remember one of every thing. we had a three bedroom house with cheap rent. There wasn’t a lot to do but we had lots of party’s at the pub and I had a little room in the house where I did hair. So when there was a party on I was really busy and then I fell pregnant. Continue reading Mum’s story Part 2
This is my first time camping and am child free just me and my magic man. It is fun but my mind keeps drifting in and out of question mode and emotions. Out here you have no choice but to feel, this brings back lots for me as it is a time to pause, lots to notice in each other, feelings for me of another commitment thingy. Continue reading Camping
Well I have been told that a blog is about happy times too. Today I am feeling happy but was not going to blog. Happy is an unfamiliar word to me, I feel it then quickly shut it down before it takes over me, but this week coming I want to forget and feel what happy is all about, this is my challenge and adventure and mmm scared to feel all at one time. So this week coming I am going on an adventure in the bush and just hoping to let go to the universe let it take me on a journey to feelings I have lost and blocked out and take me to a wild and crazy and amazing place of what I am meant to be feeing. Continue reading Happy
The last few days have been a battle for me, old patterns of thinking, those cycles of disbelief and of not feeling worthy. I use to be happy, well maybe I thought I was but now its hard to find that word happy and live it. Life gives us struggles to see how we work out our mistakes and learn, but hey this is too long I am sick of trying to learn, I just want to be happy again. I am clinging to things to run and hide with, I just want to be busy again and feel like I have a successful life. I need to let go of all those material worries and look at who is beside me. The other day I sat down on the couch I become so numb and frozen my hands started to tremble, I sat for 30 min thinking what is wrong with me. I do not think this is how it is meant to be.