How we think people see us. Open Pandora’s box of love

Open Pandora’s box of love

Opening Pandora’s Box is a saying. Maybe classed this eval is inside but love, beauty, negative can all flow into one journey giving us the giggles.

We always think the worse seeing and picking on what we don’t like about our looks.

But I see the real beauty in side people. What is on the inside comes throw our skin.

  You give me inspirations you make me laugh and I am always learning and growing around you. The habits the physical look you are thinking others see is how you see yourself. Change these thought and grow glow. That is what a true friend sees.

 as observe an intelligent man who has always got a lot of knowledge to share and always bringing people up and making them feel good about them self.

Yes you have a way of saying it how it is but that is the truth and even if they don’t understand it then and there they will realise later. You have just helped them be a better them without you realising it.

looking at a man with a hot tight ass one of my eye candy’s. I love the way you walk and strut your confidence. You are hot in many ways and you are mine and I love the way you flirt and tease and making me always satisfied.

 Your friends think you are amazing and kind and also have a lot to bring to the table in a relationship and as for my friends they only want me to be happy.

It funny after our little break I see you so differently now I see no faults just pleasure and I also feel you are taller now. You have grown in my heart and eyes and I love everything about you. S

one time I find myself thinking and picturing the little dance wiggle you do with your hips and it bring be to a little giggle.

hearing your voice singing in my ears and I smile. I have you on my mind all the time picturing your eyes ever so soft and loving and sensual.

I have fallen in love and when I say it I tell myself I am not to run from love ever again, stay and enjoy and breathe it into my soul.

I am happy comfortable and cannot see myself anywhere else in this world, only in your arms.


The way you make me feel is just unreal. I am happy our eyes crossed paths

and you gave me your number

this journey begin of us in the wind

the wind of love, the warmth of lust and to always trust

to give each other inspiration as we gather our information

our information of our path together making it for ever

I will be yours truly as I feel you near me and never leave me

I have know where to hide but in your arms of love and pride

I know this is love for us.

So let enjoy our never-ending story of you and me with glory.

Changes that affecting our life.

Changes that affecting our life.

A need to find you and your wants. Things can get taken away from you as quick as you can dream them. The biggest change of my life has happened over the last three months. My dreams swept away, taken just as quick as I was imagining them. Now I am rebuilding my life.

This time it is different, I am understand, when people talk about !if only things where different! my thoughts have been crazy, trying to hold it together and not letting it control me. But they take over and it gets hard.

 Focus in on work building it up and getting Jackson right. He is in a good place now and life is becoming easer with him as I am showing him some stability around the home front. Children need to feel safe and know that those people will always be in their life that is important to them. knowing where they stand and knowing what feels safe and will not be taken from them is very important to them.

I keep wondering maybe if it all happened differently or at a different time, but these are not the thoughts I am allowed to have. or should I have as the past is gone and we need to pause and learn from this.

When this all went down I promised my self never again I am settling and becoming strong and going with what life has offered me. I guess I will never know if I am living my true destiny or a lie to my self only time will tell me.

I guess this is all coming up as I try to get the internet stuff up and running for myself not know what to do just teaching myself as I go not getting any where with it. ( as I use to have help from my past relationship) I can do this, stand on my own two feet, I got this.

Life, what is our journey meant to be! happy, having security, having a normal life or hay not sure. Yes I am happy because life is what I wanted it to be but am I just living again or is it just unfamiliar to me. Cant change any thing this time. It is normal secure and Jackson is feeling better. Jackson is my life and I will live it for him. I am not running, I am building a life for me and my son.

I got every thing I wanted in someone but it is like that display home is it really what I wanted or do I just need to live it and warm up to it. guessing I did it for 20 years before I can do it again, then maybe retired with me, myself, and I, FINDING WHAT WAS MY JOURNEY MENT TO BE.

when things are new it takes time to adjust. the question is do you want to put effort and time into it or just run again?

My answer is not running going to spend the time as this time I feel it is worth it.

My 4 lonely fears

My 4 lonely fears

This is the time, the time of the day I feel lonely and lost that time of the day about 4pm in the afternoon.

My child is home he demands all of my attention and I cannot think and I feel like I lose myself. He has to be right near me wanting me to watch TV all afternoon.

Watching TV annoys me it feels like a waste of time and life. I think this comes from a couple of places, when I was young my parents use to make us watch the news and my ex use to just waste his weekends watching TV or eating. I feel locked into a life I am not choosing myself, which I have noticed hating being trapped into things I don’t feel like doing.

This is when I text and call out for attention but not going to this time just going try to work out what else I can do to distract myself. Hey this is it at the moment vino and writing, still feel like I am texting just don’t get a response.

Must hold it together not text the wrong people or the ones I have pushed away must do this myself. I am just looking for that void to fill that hole, that must be done within myself. Continue reading “My 4 lonely fears”