How we think people see us. Open Pandora’s box of love

Open Pandora’s box of love

opening Pandora’s Box is a saying and maybe classed this eval is inside but love and beauty and negative can all flow into one journey giving us the giggles.

We always think the worse seeing and picking on what we don’t like about our looks.

But I see the real beauty in side people. What is on the inside comes throw our skin.

 I see in you is that you give me inspirations you make me laugh and I am always learning and growing around you. The habits the physical look you are thinking others see is how you see yourself. Change these thought and grow glow. That is what a true friend sees.

 I see an intelligent man who has always got a lot of knowledge to share and always bringing people up and making them feel good about them self.

Yes you have a way of saying it how it is but that is the truth and even if they don’t understand it then and there they will realise later. You have just helped them be a better them without you realising it.

I also see a man with a hot tight ass one of my eye candy’s. I love the way you walk and strut your confidence. You are hot in many ways and you are mine and I love the way you flirt and tease and making me always satisfied.

 Your friends think you are amazing and kind and also have a lot to bring to the table in a relationship and as for my friends they only want me to be happy.

It funny after our little break I see you so differently now I see no faults just pleasure and I also feel you are taller now, he. You have grown in my heart and eyes and I love everything about you. Some time I find myself thinking and picturing the little dance wiggle you do with your hips and it bring be to a little giggle.

I also here your voice seeing in my ears and I smile. I have you on my mind all the time picturing your eyes ever so soft and loving and sensual.

I have fallen in love and when I say it I tell myself i am not to run from love ever again, stay and enjoy and breathe it into my soul.

I am happy comfortable and cannot see myself anywhere else in this world, only in your arms.

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The way you make me feel is just unreal. I am happy our eyes crossed paths

and you gave me your number

this journey begin of us in the wind

the wind of love, the warmth of lust and to always trust

to give each other inspiration as we gather our information

our information of our path together making it for ever

I will be yours truly as I feel you near me and never leave me

I have know where to hide but in your arms of love and pride

I know this is love for us.

So let enjoy our never-ending story of you and me with glory.

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FEAR, will I end up in the right person’s eyes?

FEAR, will I end up in the right person’s eyes again?

I know this is a process I have chosen and now I have to work with it and truly find what I am searching for in my soul mate.

I know I have a lot to work on as I am not making these same mistakes again.

My life feels stuck at the moment want to release my desires. This must not be unleashed until I am certain. I am still not clear on what I don’t want and what I do want.

It’s like that relationship gone sour; to the point you don’t even want to hear what they are talking about. This always happens when my cycles come in and I get the feeling of running again.

Not wanting to be touch and this is all too real as it feels like my long relationship I had for 20 years. 

Yes I get Horney but I do not even want these desires to be filled.

I am starting to regret something I did and am feeling stuck and that dirty kind of feeling again.

Am I meant to be facing this again so I can tackle them face on, facing my fears I ran away from 4 years ago.

 This is coming up for me to face my fears and be done with them and be where I am meant to be with a soul mate. Life has funny ways of presenting things to us but obviously I have not completed this part of my feelings.

I know when I was forced to have sex as a child and as an adult I felt dirty after.

I just wanted to crawl up into a little ball after being in a hot shower, leaving my skin so red it looked like I had been sunburned.

Getting to the end of my married relationship I felt like a prostitute.

Having to perform sex as he had not had it for a month and I was made to feel guilty for him not having sex.

That I did not care for him. So I use to have sex with him then I only to just giving him a head job.

 I knew I had to get out and I could not pretend to love him anymore. This went on for years as I detracted in emotions and feelings.

I was dead my this time not know which was is up. Like falling in a pool when you have been drinking and trying to swim to the top only to find you ate swimming to the boot.

These feelings are back not his fault. I am waiting for the two-week when he finally gets his own place and I can start living in my space again. Maybe I should not wait as it is killing me inside again.

I am also waiting for the explosion of my son’s father. I have sent him two texts and am waiting for him to finally contact me and Jackson as he can now have contact with Jackson. So I am killing inside waiting again.

Why can’t I clear this up now as I am starting to die inside again? I want to reach out so badly to the man who was in my life but I have to give him respect to gain his life back.

I am not making the same mistake and asking him back and then running again. But I am crying inside for his arms to make the little girl feel safe in this world again.

I could always be in his arms and disappear from the world with my problems and everything felt safe again. I miss that. We only start to miss what we haven’t got.

How do we let our self drift apart from something that is good for us and then we cannot put it back together.

I am scared it will never be the same and I will not be accepted and I have done too much damage.

Yes we could just start again but there is too much history for that and going backwards in life is never the answer.

Well there it is all my stuff out that I cannot share with anyone at the moment as it will ruin and hurt a lot of people. (just like when I was not believed when I was young, if I told the story I would ruin all around me.

wow stuck in it again) so I stay in my fear till I can face it with strength and know what makes me happy.

 

Fear of accepting your child is different.

We love our children dearly sometimes we hide behind the truth. I have been battling this for a long time. Now it has become dangerous. So I have pushed and faced the fact that this is not normal behaviour.

 

Yes everyone has their own input but not everyone has been around my child all the time. The things that happen behind closed doors, I have just been putting up with hoping everything will be normal soon. Yes we do have good days but then it goes back to verbal abuse and hitting and not letting me out of the room to breaking things.

Now we have started the medication and I am numb and not knowing what to feel. I listen to everyone having their opinion but how do I feel about this? I have had enough of the abuse and am going to go with the flow and see how this affects him. I am the mother in control and I will do what’s best for my child. But sometimes the heart gets in the way and we make some sad choices.

I do feel relieved and also concern, but I have always just wanted for him to fit in and have friends. WHEN YOUR MOTHER SENDS YOU A TEXT LIKE THIS,

The truth hurts.

I may have moved to paradise but i am not in paradise yet.

Understand our reasons for being here on earth

Understand our reasons for being here on earth

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yes, this is a big question many people ask. when things go wrong and we are forced to redirect our lives, this has happened for a reason. Being so court up and rushing through our day-to-day lives, we forget to stop and pause and look and see why. The outlook is not always clear but it can be if you take the bad out and look at the positive.


My example I will just paint you a picture. I have just moved to a small country town in Queensland and I am starting again with my business, I get offered a small job doing something completely different which is in my heart and love. Great for me and I am putting time and effort into it, not getting paid much and I start forgetting about my business which needs my focus. Anyway, time goes my hours get shortened and then it stops, they no longer need me.

Yes, I get angry, I start blaming and it just makes me feel shit like a failure in life. Having something you love and are good at being taken away from me. but this only last a day or two, then it is time to look at this picture from the other window. So I pause to take a step back and try to understand why this has happened.


This has happened to me, as now I can focus in on my business make some good money to support my family and it was the best ever experience I could have asked for. Plus having some exposed around the small town always helps with your business too. Now I am thankful for this experience and am feeling great to put my energy into my business and am looking forward to more fantastic journeys of learning.

The power of Birthday Magic unleashed

The power of Birthday Magic

Birthday Magic

Birthday magic. My life has taken a big turn after leaving  behind all I had, this is not an easy choice as I once felt like all I needed was my friends. Now realising I need to learn to love myself and the rest will come naturally fall into place.

MINDFULNESS IS ABOUT OBSERVATION WITHOUT, JUDGEMENT, AND BEGING COMPASSIONATE WITH YOURSELF.

 

I have a need to understand past experiences and to heal my body. Yes today is my birthday and feeling blessed with who is around my presence at the moment and all the magic happy birthdays I have received.

Happy birthday

A perfect birthday is different for all

yes I have been a wild child in my past

simple things in life that make the heart beat is the most important to me.

You can do any thing in your life, your choice.

achievement

we must think of what I have achieve and the choices I made to be in a happy place for myself and yes lots of people struggle.

I look and see that lots of people like to complain but still sit in there security of unhappiness.

What I have done has been bloody hard facing my own demands and finding the truth, but Birthdays can be made into what you want.

This time in my life it is hard to explain but it is all falling into place every thing is perfect yes in my eyes.

I have family, I am creating independence with work and enjoying looking out at my paradise I can call my home.

it feels like paradise a healing place for the soul, that is my home.

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Birthday whishes’ can be an illusion.

I have still got lots to do and achieve and make this flow all the way. I will never stop working on myself and my dreams.

love to help others find them self and happiness towards their dreams in life that is my passion.

we all need to take a step back and look at how far we have come, what we have achieved and be happy with that.

You can achieve any thing you like.

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