Pleasure 1996 Penthouse

Pleasure and Pain have just begun

This is me in penthouse in 1996. I walked down Kings cross at about 6am in the morning nothing but an inspector jacket on and just removing it when the pictures were taken. I had so much fun, I even got a guy following us around and the police asking us to move on as the traffic was building up.

Once upon a time there was a boy and a girl.

They met online not KNOWING what would fall.

Fall into place and end up apart.

But still longing to be TOGETHER.

I long for the day that life would stand still so I could pop those pills.

Those pills of help I wish I did not do it AND REGRET.

Before I had a changed to feel like I do.

Yes I have to stop living in the past to change

Time to find myself and engage my path

What makes me happy oh how I wish I would stop saying that

Well dancing and sex and taking control these are the thing I long for.

So lets start having fun my diary has just begun

What you will read from here on

Will maybe shock you as I have held off for too long

So let’s get this sex, party and rock in roll stared.

I love the feel of a warm cock when it just touching the lips of your pussy just before it slides in. With his juices of slippery ON THE END of his cock, just slides in and out the tip as you feel that rib just caressing your sensations. Then pushes up deep FEELING the pressing against the top of your pelvic flaw as your juices drip down your anus. knowing you are so ready for him to touch the spot that makes you trembled. your legs start shaking out of control.


Trust as a Stripper

Ok everyone has some kind of trust issues with someone in some kind of way this is my feelings on trust.

I am a strong believer if you break the trust the lust is lost. I was in a relationship for 20 years and did not even look at any one or show that I was interested in any one I was faithful in the biggest way. I did not even do face book much or even have a conversation with the opposite sex unless I was allowed. During this relationship I was a stripper so I had many offers and phone numbers given to me but did not even go there. I went to work and went straight home. I had to text the ex I was in the car and on my way home, but my partner then always questioned me and did not trust me. Everything I did was a question and I felt guilty for things that weren’t true. So trust is very confusing I do the right thing and I still feel guilty. So to prove this to someone is a too hard basket. I already did that for 20 years, I am tired of that. This should just happen naturally, the things I do and say should be enough, not me questioning everything and thinking have I done enough to prove myself.

Stripping was my outlet, it was the one place i could still be myself, I did the most amazing stage shows, it was like acting on stage capturing the audience getting loud applauses it was a place where people well guys and staff and girls loved what I did and liked me. I stripped for over 15 years. I started in Queensland doing pub shows, then working in Sydney doing pub shows and stripper grams driving from house to house on a Saturday night with my cd player by myself. Then I went and did a tour in New Zealand to then moving and working in Melbourne at Bar 20. This was my prim days as I just did penthouse so I came to Melbourne as a star lol.