Dear diary

THE BEGINNING

This has been a great journey over 2017. I will be rereading and revamping all my post to create more traffic. The post date of originals will be in there and new stuff added to how it is now.

MY DIARY

This is a diary of my life struggles and joy, that have made me who I am today. We all have a story of why we are whom we are today. This is mine, hoping you will enjoy and be hungry for more.

STRUGGLES

So it will be scatted events and stories of my life of struggle, happiness and abuse as I put it all together. Don’t look into my stories and see the pain I was in Look into my story’s and see the strength I have become. I lost myself as a little girl and have been struggling to conquer and be strong, and find the real women I truly am today.

I also lost myself over my marriage as is shut down due to verbal abuse over the years. this has been hard to regain strength and find out who I am. Things so simple as what I like to do eat and so on. When your with some one for so long, I ended up doing and eating what they liked as I lost myself and courage to say the things that had meaning to me.

!It is hard to loose a heart you say! but I did and am still struggling with the I love you thingy. It is a lost feeling I am still learning to find out what is the meaning of love to me. So now I need to be strong in my head and create magic as I use to know it

To many people just say, !I love you! without actions backing it up. It is too easy for people to just walk away and shut down and think they can do this, but it hurts and it is hard to fall in love again.

Get out of your head.