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Feelings

Saying Goodbye

by pandora
written by pandora

WHEN MY NANNA PASSED

when my nanna past away I put down some words on a piece of paper, only to find it two and half years later as I was cleaning out some of my papers.

So I would love to share this with you as she meant the world to me.

My Nan was an amazingly beautiful model always looking like a lady, always had the plum in her mouth when presenting around people. she loved to be fussed over and always caring for others. As I understand it my nan was the backbone of trying to make sure us kids were in the best place and looked after at the same time.

My foster parents looked after us, Nan was always there to put the pieces together when they fell apart. My foster parent where my Nan and Pa yacht friends. My pa owned a yacht called Wayfarer and it was the first to start the Sydney to Hobart race. Every Sunday as a family we would head out on wayfarer, head to an island call piggies island, we would have a bbq lunch and play in the sand chacing all the shoulder grabs and collect oysters off the rocks to cook in the fireplace.

Then we would sail back to salamander bay and on our way back we would hang our feet over the side of the boat as she sails fast in the wind getting our legs wet and laughing. When we got back we would throw a line over and catch some fish, didn’t matter the size those days as the small one went to the cat, she loved them.

So theses are my words to my Nanna

Monnet Luke

The beauty who touched our lives

Your beauty so positive and bright

Your cheeky sence of humour we loved in the sunlight

Your time has come to join your husband in spirit and joy all so bliss

as you look down upon us, we will all make you proud of us

You will always be in our hearts as we remember your heart

These memories we take with us of the women that made sure her family and friends where alright

You are the best Nanna, wife, mother and sister we looked up too

My greatest Nanna in the whole world

We will all miss that cheeky, glamours and big hearted women we all loved

The Nanna I will always love

her garden so much loved

her cheeky sense of humour so loved

The sailing, the weeding, the hugs,the cookies, the cats are only just some of our memories

My Nanna I will miss so very much and that goes for all of us.

Yes you will always be in our hearts

every day as we move through our lives in every way and every day

love you Nanna.

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Feelings

My frequency of pleasure

by pandora
written by pandora

soul

Today I am realising I am ready for the next level in life

Time to stop fucking around at a lower level and paying the price

My frequency is ready to shine and be teased

I want to be taken to a place of unleashed

One that will tease me and make me screams in pleasure

I want to be on a level of pleasure and pain that is my game

I trust that no man has ever gone with the flam

The game will consist of orders from sir

As I trust and listen and purr

My mind is ready to be taken away with only the stop sign is what I will have to say

We will have the rules of trust and he will turn me into mush

My body will tremble and flow likes a stream as I scream and pant with no shame to be seen

I will surrender my body to sir with all his commands

As he pleases and teases me with his mind and his hands

There will be some rope and some blind folds and a whip

And maybe some candles and Champaign to sip  

We must not forget the best one is his kiss

He will kiss me all over with his tongue and hot lips

My pussy will throb and drip as he pleases

As I wait for his cock to sleep in  

I am a women who is sexually driven in life but this time I am bored with just cock inside

I crave for my mind body and soul to be stimulated

So open your mind but before you approach as you will not get in without the ropes

Let’s see who the universe has served for me

To explore the next level of whom I am pleasing to be

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Feelings

Go with the flow

by pandora
written by pandora

Don’t resist the changes you have been given. Go with the flow.

If you resist all you create is unnecessary stress, go with the flow.

Shift your cycles

Take it in your hands and nurture, love and believe the change is yours.

http://pandorasdiary.com.au/transition-times/

Go with the flow

You will be surprised where it leads you.

Your path is yours to make.

Create great thoughts and make them yours.

We are all here to believe, live, and feel alive

You have been given a new door to open, so open it and look forward

Fear is not your friend, Be strong.

It is all a bad dream, so shut that door and live.

Close one door and open a new one full of opportunities.

You will wake up inside and be saved with a new journey.

Shift those cycles and create new doors opening.

Now is the time to give to you.

Restart and feel

the freedom.

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Feelings

My heart has finally opened

by pandora
written by pandora

My heart has finally opened


Tonight I don’t speak


I just cry my self to sleep


as my heart has opened


and his heart is broken


I must keep it asleep


or he will run and I want to be able to keep


so I will sit quietly and


watch it unfold


my turn to be the one


of support in their darkness.

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Being a single mum is frustration just about sums it up

by pandora
written by pandora

Frustration just about sums it up

 

I am a single mum as you may know and have no idea how to make things a boy wants to make.

My son is always looking on youtube on how to make things. It always involved buying the thing and using wood trills and stuff I have no idea on how to use.

This is the time I wish there was a man in my life to help my little man learn and grow to be able to make and build the stuff together.

I hate saying no and it kills me inside and it is hard to explain to an ADHD and spectrum autism child why I don’t want to try and make it, as I know what is in front of us and the emotional roller coaster we are in for.

Which I know will not work because they don’t give you measurements and then my boy has a mental breakdown and feels he has failed in making something because it did not work.

The emotions that come through are so unbearable. I start to feel like a failure too, not letting him have the experience and letting his imagination go wild.

I am always encouraging him but I hate it when I know it will be a failure and then I have to pick up the pieces and put him back together.

Frustration just about sums it up

I wish I could hire a hubby to teach him how to do men stuff and work with tools because the biggest tool we have is a big screwdriver.

So I am trying to think outside the box and redirect him back to lego and that’s not working. my head is pounding my gut is turning and am praying it will all go away.

besides buying all these tools, like a drill and spending money. it kills me that it doesn’t work out.

so trying to redirect him and saying no to this, I am getting yelled at and sworn at and am the worst mother in the world.

life can be hard sometimes and you just feel like they are taking this on alone. which I am.

I am and have been doing this all alone and just feel weak and like disappearing and hiding. but there is nowhere to hide but to stay and face it and best.

So hot and sweaty just the way I like it, slippery and wet I will never fight it

So put your sweet smell on and let’s begin

Let’s have some fun my FWB man (yeehaw)

From your ma’am as a friend

http://pandorasdiary.com.au/fear-of-acceptin…ild-is-different/

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