The pain of Hurt Feelings
As I sit, here thinking of the hurt I put someone through. Saying sorry will not change my actions I have already done.
The feeling of losing someone’s trust because you could not trust yourself.
The pause in the text the insecurity talks through your head.
I have made some big bad mistakes, not know why but the feeling of losing is not nice.
I am not sure how I can make it back to the girl he first met that had lots of laughs.
There has been some magic moment and also some dark ones too. I am hoping I can gain confident in feeling less restricted of the power of the brain and to free the heart and happiness again.
My mind keeps falling back to the pain I have created, and I can feel myself taking it slow. I am holding back of letting myself go with feelings as I feel it is the same pattern as before.
I want it to be different this time. Thinking everything I do want to make it real and prove my actions are proof. Proof that I am trying to change my cycle and stick by him as he has for me.
This man is my soul mate, and I want to feel our openness again with no sadness in each other’s minds.
We can enjoy our deep conversation and games again with freedom of trust and love. I have wanted to say those words the last day, but I don’t want them to just sound like words, just words.
http://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/blog-10-pain-and-fear.7204/
http://pandorasdiary.com.au/when-love-is-with-you/
Three things to recognise to stop the circle of cycles
- Stop notice that feeling of lost and lonely
- Talk to the one you trust, so they can help you get off that circle.
- Face it, breathe it and change your thought pattern
