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my story

by pandora
written by pandora

My promise to you is to start feeling again, find happiness within, and start reconnecting in your relationship.

My name is Pandora, and for a long time, let’s say, most of my life that I can remember. My survival was to shut down and protect and run away from what was right for me. As a child, happiness, as I saw my stepparents growing up, was arguments and violence. When someone promised me something, it would not happen, so for me to feel or even to know what happiness was all lies for me.

The pain I went through was something no one could understand as I felt nothing, which was normal for me. I learned to live and think this is what hurt is all about.

The self-sabotage I created was real, and this started a toxic life for me. And guess what I thought this was normal in my eyes.

I came from violence, abuse, and poverty. (with my stepfamily) Then I found exotic dancing, which gave me the freedom of expression and money, which lend to independence. Still, I had to shut down to dance naked for all these strange men. so it was a perfect little world for me. I know how to shut down, loved the acting side of it, just expressing my naked body through music, which I still loved to do. I wish there were a space to do it without judgment. There you go, another belief to release for 2021. yay, go, team Pandora, you got this.

This industry came with Flaws. Yes, I started to get into the drug scene. I use to only do it on my days off, not while working. I was different than the other girls, and I treaded it as an outlet to make money. The weekend and days off, I shut down my body, mind, and soul, and I lent towards not facing any reality at all with drugs, dance parties, and excellent doof doof music.

Then I met my ex-husband. He was perfect at this time of my life. He was full of knowledge, being nine years older. He helped me get off drugs, but I was still dancing because this is all I knew how to do.

Getting into exotic dancing so young, at the age of 17years old, I was 23 years old when I met my ex-husband. I had just done penthouse and was a superstar again. ; loving the attention and fame.

My ex-husband did not like this one bit. he tried different ways to get me out of this industry. In the end, after ten years, he forced me in a manipulative way of hating my body and my self-image. He put me down a lot and controlled me also. After 15 years of dancing, I ended up cutting my hair short and putting on weight—a big no-no in the lap dance industry. I turned to hate my looks and how I felt about myself. When I moved to Melbourne, it was all about pole dancing, lap dances, and working the stage performing.

When I finally woke up and left my ex-husband, it felt like I was free and strong. I was running on ego and adrenaline. I left my ex-husband with my four-year-old boy and had enough abuse as it became public and embarrassing. I was hoping for a better life. I did get one after a lot of work on myself. Finding who I am, find the little girl of fun again, and finding feelings was the most significant achievement.

After a year or so, I started to reach out for help, finding coaching, and doing a coaching course myself. I then stumbled on Theta healing, which is where my passion is. I love this tremendous simple process, which you too can use every day and is scientifically proven. Reset mindset.

I faced the pain alone first and was getting no forwards results, only sadness of sitting in my shit. I started a blog, and this helped immensely, and I still have this blog.

The solution is now easy and effortlessly, and I use these tools consistently in everyday life. I am a new woman with new beliefs and a positive manifesting lifestyle. I am receiving and giving as I move forwards in life. I am surrounding myself with amazing people and friends.

I have created a step-by-step life-changing system. that you can use every day and make the changes you desire. I will guide you and show you how to feel again, be proud of who you are, love yourself too, and have fun doing it. Your relationship will become connected, and they are attracted to the new positive fun frequency you are putting out. We are all walking frequency and energy. What you think is your energy, and you will attract this into your life.

I love the feeling and laughing and just loving being be. that fun little girl I lost years ago. i have found purpose again and am loving sharing this gift and watching women shift and be unique.

So, are you in?

Are you ready to make a change?

Only you can put the work in!

Send me a message

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General

My Story

by pandora
written by pandora

My promise to you is to start feeling again, find happiness within, and start reconnecting in your relationship.

My name is Pandora, and for a long time, let’s say, most of my life that I can remember. My survival was to shut down and protect and run away from what was right for me. As a child, happiness, as I saw my stepparents growing up, was arguments and violence. When someone promised me something, it wouldn’t happen, so for me to feel or even to know what happiness was all lies for me.

The pain I went through was something no one could understand as I felt nothing, which was normal for me. I learned to live and think this is what hurt is all about.

The self-sabotage I created was real, and this started a toxic life for me. And guess what I thought this was normal in my eyes.

I came from violence, abuse, and poverty. (with my stepfamily) Then I found exotic dancing, which gave me the freedom of expression and money, which lend to independence. Still, I had to shut down to dance naked for all these strange men. so it was a perfect little world for me.

I know how to shut down, loved the acting side of it, just expressing my naked body through music, which I still loved to do. I wish there were a space to do it without judgment.

There you go, another belief to release for 2021. yay, go, team Pandora, you got this.

This industry came with Flaws. Yes, I started to get into the drug scene. I used to only do it on my days off, not while working. I was different than the other girls, and I treaded it as an outlet to make money. The weekend and days off, I shut down my body, mind, and soul, and I leant towards not facing any reality at all with drugs, dance parties, and excellent doof doof music.

Then I met my ex-husband. He was perfect at this time of my life. He was full of knowledge, being nine years older. He helped me get off drugs, but I was still dancing because this is all I knew how to do.

Getting into exotic dancing so young, at the age of 17years old, I was 23 years old when I met my ex-husband. I had just done penthouse.

The photo shoot was in kings cross, what an experience.

then I moved to Melbourne and was a superstar again.; loving the attention and fame.

My ex-husband did not like this one bit. he tried many manipulative and different ways to get me out of this industry. But I set rules in the beginning of our relationship do not hit me, do not take my money, and do not ask me to stop dancing.

This made it hard for him, so he turned to verbal abuse manipulation. In the end, after ten years, he forced me in a way of hating my body and my self-image. He put me down a lot and controlled me also.

After 15 years of dancing, I ended up cutting my hair short and putting on weight—a big no-no in the lap dance industry. I turned to hate my looks and how I felt about myself. When I moved to Melbourne, it was all about pole dancing, lap dances, and working the stage performing.

When I finally woke up and left my ex-husband, it felt like I was free and strong. I was running on ego and adrenaline. I left my ex-husband with my four-year-old boy and had enough abuse as it became public and embarrassing.

I was hoping for a better life.

I did get one after a lot of work on myself. Finding who I am, finding the little girl of fun again, and finding feelings was the most significant achievement.

After a year or so, I started to reach out for help, finding coaching, and doing a coaching course myself. I then stumbled on Theta healing, which is where my passion is.

I love this tremendous simple process, which you too can use every day and is scientifically proven. Reset mindset.

I faced the pain alone first and was getting no forwards results, only sadness of sitting in my shit. I started a blog, and this helped immensely, and I still have this blog.

The solution is now easy and effortlessly, and I use these tools consistently in everyday life. I am a new woman with new beliefs and a positive manifesting lifestyle. I am receiving and giving as I move forwards in life. I am surrounding myself with amazing people and friends.

Know what happiness feels like, wow and having a sense of direction is indescribable.

I have created a step-by-step life-changing system. that you can use every day and make the changes you desire. I will guide you and show you how to feel again, be proud of who you are, love yourself too, and have fun doing it. Your relationship will become connected again, and you will send an attractive new positive fun frequency. We are all walking frequency and energy. What you think is your energy, and you will attract this into your life.

I love the feeling and laughing and just loving being be. that fun little girl I lost years ago. I have found purpose again and am loving sharing this gift and watching women shift and be unique.

So, are you in?

Are you ready to make a change?

Only you can put the work in!

reach out and message me to find out the first step you need to take.

https://www.facebook.com/pandora.boyle

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Reset Mindset

by pandora
written by pandora

Everyone has a story. whether we choose to sit in it or create a new one

whether we decide to sit in the past or move forwards into the future

my story goes as a single mum, the feeling of doing it alone

being a single mum is one of the most challenging choices I have made.

My life, as I saw it, was perfect. I had a stable roof over my head, and I thought I had a nice regular husband and a steady job—an ideal environment to bring up your child, you would think.

That’s why I was waiting so long to have my boy. I wanted everything to be perfect

as my childhood was just not that nice.

So at 40, I had my boy. Before I realized my marriage was falling apart, I was in a state of depression and shut down, feeling nothing and just going along with life, as you do.

So I had my boy thinking everything would be Rossey and be even better. After four years of trying to make it work in my eyes and not seeing the real picture. The controlling, verbal abuse. Yes, I had my horses before my boy, that was my outlet, but when my boy came along, he was my priority as you do as a mother.

When I became a mother, this was my life. My husband was a shift worker, and he would work all night most of the time and need to sleep during the day, which is fine when it was just me. I would work all day then. It was hard to keep a baby quiet from 8 am till 4 pm. so I would go out for the day and entertain him for this time. As it happened, more and more, I was not copying. I was getting no sleep during the night, as my boy woke three times a night.

When I would put my boy down at 8 pm, I would think should I go to bed now or enjoy some me-time. If I went to bed, I couldn’t sleep, and if I stayed up, I would get less sleep as he would wake two hours after I fell asleep. To this day, I don’t know how I lasted for 6years of not sleep. How did I function? I guess you just hit the autopilot.

These days I had to stay out of the house while my husband slept where hard. I lived in a cold climate, and it was freezing. Trying to find friends to visit, taking him to those kids’ play centers were hard. I do the grocery shopping on the way home to unpack them so I could make some noise, as he was awake then.

My boy was not easy from day one, not sleeping, always hungry as my milk dried up, and breastfeeding and expressing the milk as it was not coming out. he threw tantrums till he made himself sick. He got expelled from a childcare center. When I would pick him up, I got told how bad he was and what therapy he needs. And to top it all off, I got verbal abuse, and I was not good enough. I don’t clean the house, I can’t cook, and made sit there while my husband expressed his opinion, and I had to agree to it. He was always right, and it was everyone else’s fault.

Yes, everyone has a story, and I have moved forwards and forgiven and removed blockages that have stopped me from living a peaceful life.

I made a big choice to leave this toxic relationship and do it alone.

And yes, it felt like I was alone.

For many years and sometimes even today, I would fall apart and feel alone as a single mum. I have been doing the self -work, which we all say we are doing. But to do this alone was hard too. I made some choices to study to be a coach, I found theta healing, and I got coached.

We all get stuck trying to make it alone. I do recommend finding someone you connect with and ask for help.

Asking for help is challenging in its self.

Stop feeling alone,

stop doing it alone, and make a change. The chance to reset the mindset.

Since moving out on my own with my boy when he was four years old, I have had many challenges. Yes, in the beginning, I was running on ego and making some wrong decisions.

I have also broken some men’s hearts and lived a bit on the way. When you don’t know how and what a relationship is, it is hard to find what you want because you don’t know yourself.

Now I am living a great life of peace, and my boy is growing with me.

Since 2014 we have moved five times moved states, and my boy has been diagnosed with ADHA, an autism spectrum, on medication, and now I am coaching women who are on the journey I used to live.

I help women feel that connection and strength and stop feeling alone and shut down. I am living proof of the best journey I can ever ask be in

Join me to make a shift you want to look back because you’re not going that way.

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